Fixed. The state of something improved. Many people have told me that one of my strengths is that when I notice something in myself that I want to change, I set my mind to improving it. I'm committed to the process of growth because I believe I'm on a journey with God in becoming my truest, healthiest self. But... there's another part of me that balks at the idea of remaining static, that fears feeling like a failure and wasting my life if I'm not living up to my potential (that vague threshold no one can define).
final quarantine meditation: my soul purpose
Photo credit Like hundreds of people, I watched the animated movie Soul this past week, and also like many people, by the end of the film, I was in tears. Without giving any spoilers away, I can say that I couldn't think of a better movie to end 2020 on as I contemplate what this … Continue reading final quarantine meditation: my soul purpose
the new kingdom
Hi All! I haven't done this before, but I wanted to share with you a spoken word poem I wrote for my church's service today. It's inspired by Daniel 7 in the Old Testament of the Bible which provides an apocalyptic vision that speaks to the empires of this world and how they threaten to … Continue reading the new kingdom
quarantine meditation four: into the unknown
What do Elsa, a Japanese anime character, and the year 2020 have anything to do with each other? We all had so many expectations for 2020. It was supposed to be the year of "vision" (20/20 vision if you're a cheesy person like me). Many of us had dreams of career progression, travelling, pursuing new … Continue reading quarantine meditation four: into the unknown
a confession for our times
There is always power when we confess our sins as a community, when we take the road of repentance together as we seek to be restorers of the world around us. O Lord, we come before your throne with broken hearts and weary spirits. We grieve the loved ones we have lost during this pandemic. We … Continue reading a confession for our times
quarantine meditation three: clinton
I woke up this morning and realized you were gone. I saw the Facebook posts and Instagram memorials, and as I read each one in bed, I felt myself beginning to shake. Yesterday was real. It was real when my friend Luz called me around 8 in the morning to deliver the news. It was … Continue reading quarantine meditation three: clinton
quarantine meditation two: distancing
Celé Beauty closed down, and I almost didn't notice. I've made that walk down Heath Ave, past the elementary school, past the Target and onto the 225th Street train stop everyday for almost 5 years, yet it took me four days to see the "CLOSED" signs slapped onto the windows of the beauty store-now-turned-Footlocker. The … Continue reading quarantine meditation two: distancing
quarantine meditation 1: number our days
We are surrounded by numbers right now. We always have been, but now numbers carry a different kind of weight as I scan through statistical graphs of how many people have contracted COVID-19 around the world. My eyes follow projected curves rising, flattening, and numbers point to the losses we have already experienced and the future we desperately hope for.
I reflect on 5 years in NYC and the silences I'm thankful for.
A motley combination of Buzzfeed personality quizzes, neatly filled-in coloring books, and anecdotes from my childhood Sunday School teacher (who told me I always requested to sit in a chair instead of on the ground with the other kids so I wouldn't get my dress dirty) inform me that I am, in fact, a perfectionist. … Continue reading buried talents